I've been having some very disturbing dreams lately...

Dreams that feel so real, that I wake up pinching myself...

"Am I awake... wait...Am I dreaming?"

Honestly, it's hard to say...

The most recent dream---Being trapped in a space between two elevators.

I realize while writing here, that this is a dream because only one elevator USUALLY ascends and descends up and down the shaft...

But in this particular dream, I was literally stuck in between the space of two elevators full of people.

Even if I were to scream, no one could hear me, and that space in between was really, really, itsy-bitsy tiny.  And...at any moment, I might be crushed.

In looking at the deeper meaning, I realize that in life I may feel trapped... hidden in a dark space, where only inches away are people... human beings.   Others, going to work, conversing, laughing, crying... riding in an elevator to a destination.  I don't feel close to them, even though we are traveling together.

"Hmmm... what does this say about my condition?"  I ask myself.  "What does this say about me?"  

Having people in your life does not guarantee happiness or security.

It really doesn't.

Oftentimes, I feel the opposite.  I can be surrounded by a large group or even one friend.  But, if there is no connection, no trust, no understanding, I feel isolated... like being trapped between two elevators full of people...

So that's where I am... I think I'll stop there and ponder this some more.

Maybe my next blog will focus on the ending to my dream...

How I pulled myself out of that space and into the light of the doors opening...